Times are hard. I need to get my ass in gear and start subbing some work out. I really need to.
I'm not sure if I will... yet.
I feel like I'm grasping at straws. The horror magazines I know of probably wouldn't take my hack work. I need a paying market. I think my work is worth less than any paying market will offer.
What to do?
Fuck if I know.
I've never published before. I say it a lot, but I'm not ashamed of being unpublished. It's even in my blog title. You know what you get when you get here. Not a pro, not even semi-pro. Not even sure of myself.
Maybe that's the problem.
For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, well, I'm talking about being scared. Should I be scared? Yes, I should.
I have an acquaintance on a WD who is a published author. He recently told me that enjoys reading my work. That's quite a compliment.
I have another friend who also enjoys my work. (She's read my novels and several shorter works) She is an unpublished writer as well. She tells me I have natural talent.
And yet another on AW who wrote a story because mine gave her a spark. That's something I felt very touched by. It's usually only published authors who give that kind of inspiration to a reader.
I'd like to believe these people... but I can't.
I've been told by another that my work was unprofessional, not suitable for any paying venue anywhere, and that my writing construction was terribly amateurish. This, all from one person. And for the life of me, I can't get her comments out of my head. It makes me hesitate.
Because I feel that my writing isn't suitable for a paying venue. I feel that it's unprofessional and amateurish. And I don't know how to fix that. Because I really do feel that way.
So, I'm thinking about a venture out. I might try to shop some of my short stories around. If no one wants them, then I'll have my answer. I'll know what I need to do.
Peace and love, y'all
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